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I’m still waiting… impatiently of course.

While waiting I’ve been thinking about life and marriage… it is hard, it is daily. I’m not sure some people realize that… whether or not they’re in a relationship. Everyday you literally have to be conscious of what you are doing and how you are affecting your mate. I know you are supposed to be comfortable enough to be yourself, but you can’t just do that. There is more. You have to make sure you are taking care of your spouse’s needs, before your own… sometimes that means giving up something for yourself…. EVERYDAY! It never ends. Marriage is a lifetime commitment.

Ok now that I got that off my chest, tonight I decided to spoil Nick since he had to work today; Superbowl Sunday. Sooo after he left for work, and after I had taken my Sunday afternoon nap, I decided to throw him a surprise Super Bowl party for just us tonight… But he will have already eaten dinner, so I don’t need to feed him to much… he is eating healthy so that limits me. He also picked up a bag of tortilla chips the other day for the purpose of eating during the game, but he ate most them while I was at work yesterday…. So there really isn’t much food wise that I can do. But I’m more creative than that! I cut out triangle flags in the Steelers & Packers colours and have hung them ALL over our apartment! You see neither of us care who wins, we just want to watch it for the fun of it, and we have both boycotted seeing the score or anything about the game all day! I also decided the decorations weren’t enough so I completely re-arranged out living room so that the lazy boy chair was facing the TV! I don’t plan on keeping it like that, but I wanted him to realize how much work I did for him to get the Superbowl experience he’s missing so that he can help pay our bills! I got out a football for decoration, I have all the dishes ready for me to put the food in shortly before he gets home at 11pm.

(see more pics on FB)

All this has given me a distraction from thinking of the results of the interview….I told my mom how hard it is, because I want to dream about what it will be like to have the job, to get to do what I love, but since I don’t know for sure that the job is mine, I really don’t want to dream about it and then have my hopes dashed, but it’s really hard! I keep talking about getting a kitty because Nick and I had struck up an agreement that if I got a job by valentines day, I could get a kitty for V-day…. I’m sooo close! It is easier to dream about getting a cat because even if we can’t get one right away we’ll eventually get one, but I might not get the job.
Ohhhh I hope and pray that I get this job!!!

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I’m laying in bed 3 hours from waking up at 3:45AM to leave to fly out to my cousin’s wedding when I get a message from her fiance. Before I tell you what he says you have to know he’s been rubbing it in my face that even after he proposed 2 weeks after my fiance – they’re getting married 301 day before us. So I get this message –

“We’re about 45 hours from consumating :>”

I’ve been laying in bed thinking of my wedding day and how excited I am – I think about it all the time but when I think of my wedding day, I’m always thinking about it as the first day of the rest of my life with Nick. I just can hardly wait for that day!!! So I reply with –

“I’m about 3 hrs from waking up to fly out there to celebrate you doing what I want to do – 301 days before me”

Which I thought was clever. I’m very excited for them – and they’ve waiting longer to find each other so I‘m ecstatic that they’ve finally found each other after years and years and kilometers of traveling to meet one another. But I WANT to be this close to the rest of my life too!!!

I must go to sleep! I have a big couple days ahead of me…. add in some jet lag.

Oh and random thought that I had while trying to sleep. Nick is in Pennsylvania with his dad fishing – while he’s there and I’m in Vancouver – we are going to be 2771.44 miles apart – but when he’s on his cross cultural in January to Costa Rica (which who knows how I’m going to survive 3 weeks apart….) we’ll only be 2233.08 miles apart. How weird is that?

Oh and for those wondering – the interview went well I think – they’re contacting in about week.