Today was good.
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
– Psalms121 (also check out vs. 5-8)
A few minutes ago I was sitting in my car, 2 minutes from home listening to the choir music for the fall season as I had been the whole way to-and-from CO Spgs. On the way to CO Spgs I was in such a rush to get to the airport on time to pick up my cousin Terry who was in town for business. He had a few hours to spend with me, his favourite cousin and I was excited to see him. On the way home I was in no rush and had time to reflect on the whole day.
Reflection:
This morning I arrived at church at 7:45, as I had been chosen to play a mom (of a 12 year old) in a skit that went along with the message. Today begins a series on Generosity and in the skit I played the wife of a very “not-so-generous-but-fake-generous” man. In the sermon this morning our Pastor was so passionate about his message that I thought he was going to fall off the stage. (more on that later)
After getting my cousin checked into the hotel (his prison for the duration of this international business conference), instead of going for coffee or dinner like we had talked about, I took him to Garden of the God’s. Now I have been there about 4 or 5 times since moving here in January and the first time it was amazing… all the other times it was rainy and I’d seen it before. But, it is still an awesome wonder that I want to share with everyone but it’s “awe-someness” in the real sense of the word had worn off for me.
However on this visit, seeing it through my cousin’s eyes, who only had 2 hours to experience the beauty that we have now known to call home, and the little boy he turned into, in this one of God’s coolest garden’s blessed my heart. We were all over those gorgeous orange rocks, climbing in crevices and up vertical walls of rocks. He took on challenges his mother would have had a heart attack over and his wife would never let him try but by golly he was so proud of himself!
When we left the hotel he told me he needed to be back between 6:00 and 6:30 and then when we got there he said “well, I could be a little late”…. and once we were climbing all over he changed his story to “I should at least make an appearance”. Our very first weekend in Colorado and Nick said about Garden of the God’s “I’m going to drive out here all the time, climb to a quiet private place and read God’s word!” It is such an AWEsome place.
I got Terry back to the hotel about 6:36 and started on my way back home. At 6:37 the sun was so bright and about to make its plunge behind the mountains and WOW me with their beauty.
When the ray’s peak over the top of the mountains, it takes my breath away with its unspeakable beauty. By the time I was home, the mountains were solid colour shadow’s in 3 or 4 depths.
Does that make sense? I am in awe of my surroundings here….Spending 2 hours with a cousin who is more like a big brother to me made me miss home, the flat, flat city that I call home. It made me miss home more than a week with my parents because I got just a taste of home. However, it made me realize how incredibly lucky I am to live here in this amazing part of the world where God’s majesty is just thrown all over the ground. I can take 1000’s of pictures and each one is worth a thousand words but they still can’t describe the beauty of MY God.
So what does this have to do with generosity and our Pastor’s message this morning? Well, he was falling off the stage to express how even if we had won the 656 million dollar lottery this spring that, in reality to all God has given us that would be NOTHING. We are richer than a mega million lottery could ever provide and by rich he didn’t mean money. We have been given breath, and relationships with friends, Family and A CLOSE PERSONAL relationship with the GOD who created this whole gorgeous amazing world just for us. If you like spending other people’s money rather than your own, realize that everything on this earth is from God and he has given it to us! (I’m not going to do his rant justice so here’s a link to it and it will soon be posted online).
We have learned a lot about generosity in the last couple months… wanna know how? Have all your income taken away. When my job was out-sourced at the end of June, I knew I could pay rent for July, but I didn’t know where the money was going to come from to pay rent in August. Nick is in school full time, and I was making the bucks to keep us fed and housed. We moved here not totally sure that we would be able to survive on 1 income alone…. but for 6 months WE made it work. For the last 2 months GOD has made it work. We are living completely on faith and looking to God to provide for our needs. HE has provided food, HE has provided some temporary work and some babysitting jobs, HE has moved family to give us money. HE has provided generous people to help us out. For the past 6 months and 20ish years I’ve been self-sufficient. I didn’t need God. I could work to make money to feed myself, to clothe myself, to get me from point A to point B and point L.
But God brought us so far away from home to teach us to depend on HIM.
Knowing Him, there is no greater thing!
Therefore, when this song, which I’ve heard and sung and led the congregation in Worship so many times came blaring through my car speakers… I began sobbing uncontrollably.
All I once held dear, built my life upon,
All this world reveres and wars to own;
All I once thought gain I have counted loss,
Spent and worthless now compared to this.
Knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
There is no greater thing.
You're my all, You're the best,
You're my joy, my righteousness,
And I love You Lord.
Now my heart's desire is to know You more,
To be found in You and know as Yours,
To possess by faith what I could not earn
All surpassing gift of righteousness
Oh to know the power of Your risen life,
And to know You in Your sufferings;
To become like You in Your death, my Lord,
So with You to live and never die.
I am NOTHING without Christ and Knowing HIM is the best.